If you didn’t know (which I’m sure the majority of people reading this won’t) I’ve had a pretty stressful time lately, it’s been emotional and all sorts of stressful and tough so I’ve been trying to spend each evening doing something that helps me relieve some of that stress. It’s also very quickly become a regular evening thing for me to take some time for myself.
I think we have all seen and experienced the glorious weather lately. As well as wanting to be out in it a lot, I’ve also found the need to clean and have a good clear out of the house. We live in a 2 bed rented terraced and it seems it has been easy for us to just put things in a room or to the side so it looks relatively tidy but isn’t amazingly tidy, that bag of gift bags was still in the corner of bear’s room until recently, and we still have a dismantled dining table in our lounge and kitchen. But I’ve just felt the need to clean loads recently. Having the doors open, windows open and fresh, clean smells everywhere is my favourite thing now I’ve been getting ready for summer, our next job is to fully clear each room one by one (not just because we had a house inspection or we want to move at some point but “tidy house, tidy mind” and all that).
Before I even became a parent myself, I would see how others parented their children or see how society was changing and things becoming more mainstream etc and think “I would never do that with my children”. I’m pretty sure I’m not alone in this either. And it’s not to be crazy judgemental or to doubt anyone’s parenting skills. Before you become a parent, I’m sure most people don’t even have much of an idea of how children are at different ages; what they’re into? how they act? what will they be like? and so when we see others in passing or on our Facebook timelines with children, we’re simply observing and making our own ideals and how we would like to parent from what we’ve seen; maybe we’ve seen something really incredible which we feel will be amazing with our children, or we’ve seen something we immediately think “no, I couldn’t”.
As most of you reading this might know, little bear turned 2 years old recently!! I know, my heart is aching so much, he seems to have just grown and flourished in the last couple of weeks and no longer looks like my baby anymore. Anyway, I struggled for so long with ideas of what to get him. It’s recently been Christmas so he received plenty of things for that which I had to make lots of room for and there was just nothing specific he needed or I wanted for him that either he didn’t already have or was suitable or just didn’t take up a ridiculous amount of space or get lost.
You could call this a bucket list, I wouldn’t mind. I feel like I need to de-stress and have some happy time for me. I’ve struggled so much for a while, I just feel like I need to go somewhere (though a passport and a travel partner would be helpful. Though I wouldn’t not consider it just me and bear). I do love a staycation, I think there are many areas in Britain which are wonderful and beautiful and have lots to offer, but I would definitely love to travel abroad. Especially considering I haven’t since I was around 10/11. I’ve found some amazing little spots I’d love to see and visit and I’d love to share them with you!